Hi,
I just tried my first DE cycle at the start of this month and it was a BFN. It was a strange experince for me as it was the first time in my whole life that I had ever tried to get pregnant!! When I was 20 I had ovarian cancer. I lost both my ovaries and there was no ovarian tissue left so no eggs to freeze. Luckily the surgeon made the decision to leave my womb. So I always knew I would never be able to get pregnant on my own and I could not imagine how it would feel to be pregnant. I had never had a serious boyfriend before I got sick so being pregnant was something I had never really thought about.
So after the transfer I wasn't prepared for how happy I would feel to maybe be pregnant. Then it was over in an instant and I wasn't prepared for how sad that would make me feel. In fact one of the things I was most worried about before the transfer was that I would not like the feeling of another life inside me. That it would freak me out! I know it sounds silly but I have an over-active imagination that leans towards the negative. It actually felt amazing!
We are very lucky as we still have three frosties and I am hoping that one of them will be successful.
I would love it if you could share some stories about successful pregnancies after failed cycles. I know there are lots on here but it would be great to have them all in one place where I could go to to read them if I am feeling down. I am driving myself crazy searching different sites for statistics and stories with a happy ending.
It would really make me feel better. It was a tough weekend but I am feeling better today and trying to be positive.
Thanks so much
Emma 