Try donor egg again or move to adopt

Been so long since I have posted. At the point where we need to decide if we want to try donor egg one more time or move to adoption. I am 45 and need to decide asap. We met with a potential new doctor and also an adoption lawyer and understand the pros and cons of each.

I just keep flip flopping on the next move and cannot move on from this.

Its torture. How have any of you made the decision?