I don't even know where to start. I will get right to the point.
Trying to have a baby had taken a toll on my relationship. Me and ex-BF have been living separately for about 18 months. In that 18 months we still tried having a child. Technically were are no longer a couple, but our want for a child and the love was still there. So although we had broken up, our attempt to have a child never stopped.
We sought out a donor, made embryos and had 2 failed cycles. Fast forward to us taking a 9 month break from trying and now deciding to try again about 4 weeks ago.
Two weeks ago, he started acting weird. Which fast forward to 2 days ago he told me he got someone pregnant. It was an old flame he bumped into and hooked up with etc.
I am beside myself. I'm mad and any other emotion you can think of.
Technically we are not a couple so can he do what he wants..YES. It wasn't cheating. But after all we have been thru to get to this point, and now to know that he has a baby on the way with someone. I'm just..I don't even know. Hurt.
One side of me wants to just walk completely away. Never speak to him again. Give up my chances of ever becoming a mother. Another part of me is like F-ck that. I have put in years of blood sweat tears and pain. I'm doing my cycle. F-ck everyone.
Sorry this is so long. Any words of advice would be appreciated.