Hello there. I'm 37 weeks pregnant with my first child through DE (with husband's sperm) so I'm basically due any moment and am having those last minute fears about bonding with the baby. I went through 3 full IVF cycles plus 2 failed/cancelled attempts with my OE and it was the hardest time in my life. I still grieve the loss, and have tried to stay positive through the pregnancy, but most days I feel like a surrogate to this strange thing moving around in my belly. Everyone askes me if I'm "excited" and I'm not. Even though it's incredible to think about how my flesh and blood is creating this new life, it doesn't feel like it's "mine." I know most donor moms say it all changes when the baby is in your arms, but this is just how I'm feeling in the moment and would love to hear other people's experiences so I can face the next big, scary event (labor!) with the strength I need. Thank you!
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