Sorry ladies, I'm going to vent.
This isn't too positive, but I'm going to vent anyway.
My frozen embryo transfer scheduled for today was cancelled last night.
My RE called to say that the lab had made a mistake and failed to defrost my Day Three embryo on Monday. (The plan was to defrost and grow the embie out to blast.)
I assumed hearing nothing meant success. Instead it meant my RE had forgotten about me and my embryo!
Since August of 2013, I've had a month and a half of waiting for a period after my failed FET in July, a cycle of Estrace priming which induced ovulation, a cancelled Mock Cycle due to another ovulation, a Mock including Lupron, an "extremely difficult" endometrial biopsy, a Real Cycle cancelled due to Lab error. Now it's going to be another Real Cycle after a bit more progesterone.
Prior to this were two failed FETs at my old practice.
My plan is to get right back on the horse and try (again) with this last little frostie from my first donor. Then possibly find a new practice to try again with a new donor. What I thought would be a simple path to a second child has become well... A year of "surprises".
Positive thoughts: I got off the phone with my RE and promptly had a large caffeinated VIA from Starbucks which was AWESOME (back on the wagon today), my 21 month old son from donor egg is wonderful and keeps me loving every minute of motherhood, my parents are surprise visiting this week and we didn't quite know how to deal with keeping the transfer and two days of bed-rest a secret. Now we don't have to worry and I can enjoy my parents.
Last, there was a post on the board about Laura Linney having a baby at 49 that I read for the first time last night. (Thanks Donielle.) I've been feeling really anxious about "trying" as an older mom and this recent setback had me questioning this path I've chosen. No more! I feel like I bought a year, having lost a year.
Looking forward to a February transfer, Ojala.
PS I'm in Los Angeles if anyone wants to PM me with reproductive practice recommendations. I've gotten some already from several board members (thank you).
I hope everyone is doing well.
This isn't too positive, but I'm going to vent anyway.
My frozen embryo transfer scheduled for today was cancelled last night.
My RE called to say that the lab had made a mistake and failed to defrost my Day Three embryo on Monday. (The plan was to defrost and grow the embie out to blast.)
I assumed hearing nothing meant success. Instead it meant my RE had forgotten about me and my embryo!
Since August of 2013, I've had a month and a half of waiting for a period after my failed FET in July, a cycle of Estrace priming which induced ovulation, a cancelled Mock Cycle due to another ovulation, a Mock including Lupron, an "extremely difficult" endometrial biopsy, a Real Cycle cancelled due to Lab error. Now it's going to be another Real Cycle after a bit more progesterone.
Prior to this were two failed FETs at my old practice.
My plan is to get right back on the horse and try (again) with this last little frostie from my first donor. Then possibly find a new practice to try again with a new donor. What I thought would be a simple path to a second child has become well... A year of "surprises".
Positive thoughts: I got off the phone with my RE and promptly had a large caffeinated VIA from Starbucks which was AWESOME (back on the wagon today), my 21 month old son from donor egg is wonderful and keeps me loving every minute of motherhood, my parents are surprise visiting this week and we didn't quite know how to deal with keeping the transfer and two days of bed-rest a secret. Now we don't have to worry and I can enjoy my parents.
Last, there was a post on the board about Laura Linney having a baby at 49 that I read for the first time last night. (Thanks Donielle.) I've been feeling really anxious about "trying" as an older mom and this recent setback had me questioning this path I've chosen. No more! I feel like I bought a year, having lost a year.
Looking forward to a February transfer, Ojala.
PS I'm in Los Angeles if anyone wants to PM me with reproductive practice recommendations. I've gotten some already from several board members (thank you).
I hope everyone is doing well.