Hello Ladies,
I'm down in the dumps and I feel like this is the only place where anyone will understand what I'm going through. It feels like everyone in my life is getting pregnant or giving birth and although I'm happy for them, I find myself struggling to keep from bursting into tears as I listen to them tell me about "the happy accident" or a first sonogram. Not to mention shopping for one baby gift after another. I feel like such a terrible person for feeling so jealous!
It all adds up to my struggle with when it's time to raise the white flag on my own eggs. When do you know? I'll be 44 in July and we are trying to conceive naturally again after a rupturing ectopic on Christmas...which means I now only have one tube (as if I needed any more obstacles).
Sorry for venting. I guess that's the heart of the matter...for those who have started on the DE journey...when/how did you know it was time to give up on using your own eggs? It's hard for me to let that go as I have always looked forward to not only seeing my husband in my child's face, but me also.
I'm down in the dumps and I feel like this is the only place where anyone will understand what I'm going through. It feels like everyone in my life is getting pregnant or giving birth and although I'm happy for them, I find myself struggling to keep from bursting into tears as I listen to them tell me about "the happy accident" or a first sonogram. Not to mention shopping for one baby gift after another. I feel like such a terrible person for feeling so jealous!
It all adds up to my struggle with when it's time to raise the white flag on my own eggs. When do you know? I'll be 44 in July and we are trying to conceive naturally again after a rupturing ectopic on Christmas...which means I now only have one tube (as if I needed any more obstacles).
Sorry for venting. I guess that's the heart of the matter...for those who have started on the DE journey...when/how did you know it was time to give up on using your own eggs? It's hard for me to let that go as I have always looked forward to not only seeing my husband in my child's face, but me also.