I had blood work done yesterday and it was over 32,000. I had morning sickness this morning and went to work. Three hours later, I went to the bathroom because I thought I was having gas cramps ans found myself gushing blood. Bright red blood. I was going to be 6 weeks on Friday. I'm going tomorrow again for blood work, but I'm pretty sure it's over for me. I don't understand what I ever did to deserve this. I am a 31 yr old who can't even make someone else's eggs work. For the past two years, I have lost 4 babies, spent all our money, and lost my sanity. I feel like I am broken. I am so sad that I can't do something that I feel defines me as a woman. I think I'm done trying. I guess it's just not in the cards for me.
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